I casually picked up a novel,
Only to fall into the author’s trap.
This book was a snare!
The glue on its pages
held my hands fast,
Not sparing even my gaze.

Finally, with the tape of time,
I sealed the last page of the final chapter.
My hands at last freed,
I threw the book down hard,
My eyes trying to escape the pages
to embrace the world outside, to rescue me back to reality.

Back to reality? The spell from the book
Had already filled my eyes with glistening dew.
Why, looking at the sports field through the window,
Do I see no people, only a grim silence?
Why does the endless blue sky
Make my skin crawl, feeling time and the world endlessly slipping by?

I felt caught in a net cast from another world,
A serpent in my mind, spewing drowsy nightmares everywhere.
What trembling hand stretches out from the shadow in that corner?
Why does that shadow also bear a shivering smile?
Oh, how strange this place is,
Oh, how frightening!

I ran.
Perhaps behind me,
stars fall,
the earth decays,
But all will stay behind, I hope.
Yet I must become mysterious, I must resist.

Now is the time.
I roar,
Sending madness and obsession
With an invisible bow into the sky.
I know they’ve gone to another planet,
At least they won’t come back.

16 July 2022 in Cambridge

充满情绪的时候

随手拿起一部小说，
没想到却落入了作者的阴谋
这书是一个陷阱，
书页上的黏液，
把我的手紧紧粘住，
连我的视线也不放过

当我终于用时间的胶布
封住了最后一章的最后一页
我的手终于得以自由
狠狠地把书丢下
我的眼睛也尝试躲开书页
去拥抱窗外，去解救我回到现实

回到现实？书里的魔咒，
早已让我眼里露珠晶晶
为什么看着窗外的运动场，
看不到人，只看到灰暗的寂静？
为什么望不见底的蓝天，
让我毛骨悚然，感到时间和世界流逝无尽？

我感到落入了来自另一个世界的罗网
头脑里有条毒蛇，四处喷射着昏沉沉的噩梦
墙角的黑影，伸出了什么颤抖的手？
墙角的黑影，怎么还有战栗的笑容？
哦，这里是多么陌生，
哦，这里是多么令人害怕！

我撒腿就跑
或许在我背后，
星星随之陨落，
大地随之衰亡
但一切只会在我背后，我希望
但我要变得神秘，我要反抗

就是现在
我一声大吼
把疯狂与执念
用无形的弓射向了天空
我知道它们去往了另一个星球
至少不会再回来

2022年7月16日于剑桥